"If you’re anything like me, faith often feels like “letting go.” Letting go of the things I can’t control, of the unnecessary worrying about tomorrow, of the constant lie to try to prove myself or earn my worth."
- Pat Barrett
It's 22nd Aug 2023, I'm being asked to take time off from telco work by my boss, to use this time to rest completely and recover. It's a time when Amelia is 2 yrs old, I'm 38, when I am considering a fulltime position in church. I just secured a corporate APAC accountant job with Unigra to explore another option, to just want to be sure of the market rate out there and whether I still can get back to finance.
I took this time to rest, to ponder, to wander in between the lines of being with the family, having some time on my own. Perhaps I crave the time again when once I was young and my mind danced free with poetic rhythms uncluttered by the worries of the world.
I think I'm hearing God speak again.
Firstly, only God can give rest & recovery. By human means counsel can be given, a better environment provided, but true rest, the rest of the soul, from God alone. I am still learning what it means, will my soul find its restful place within the safe presence of God, or will I stubbornly continue to strive by willful self-ambition. Please, learn to put no confidence in the flesh, but to place full confidence in Jesus, serve Him by His spirit. Place assurance on His providence.
Watch out for those dogs, those evildoers, those mutilators of the flesh. For it is we who are the circumcision, we who serve God by his Spirit, who boast in Christ Jesus, and who put no confidence in the flesh.
Phil 3:2-3
