serenity

sunday..

i wish i could split into two during weekends, so that i can rest to prepare for weekdays.
A little jaded of meeting schedules by the minutes.
had breakfast at 7, lunch at 4.30, dinner at 11.
tonight will achieve my target of sleeping before 2, yay.

but it's really nice teaching drums today, although some students made me a little sad and worried, one tried to cheer me up and succeeded. =) it's amusing to see how proud she felt to be able to cheer me up, haha.

the last quiet student finally warmed up to me, a very well-prepared and diligent student. cute little 8-yr old girl with stunningly big, crystal gleaming double-lid eyes. seriously the most beautiful eyes i've ever seen in my life, with a pretty smile to backup. ha.
if i were to have a daughter, hopefully she will have eyes like her. =P


in this church (not FGC), i'm teaching some of the coolest girls, pretty and deadly in drums - scare off the ego boys in the future, lol. my boy students are not too bad too, some r also quite talented and all are very 'teachable'.
i enjoy my work, it's nice to see them learning drums so quickly.

i find myself smiling after finishing the last class, saying byes, switching off the warm spotlights and riding home in cold winds. the end of every sunday, one of the colourful photos in my memory album.

another change in 6 months, i think, becoming a cycle. meeting different people, facing other challenges, changing of schedule. Seems that nothing ever stays, besides family, close friends and the author of life.

so.. goodnight, close my eyes, and dream of another colour, in tomorrow's light.

love

was very enlightened & encouraged by this.. from evan almighty, heh. nice comedy.


If you prayed for patience,
do you think God will give you patience,
or opportunities to be patient?

If you prayed for courage,
will God give you strong courage,
or opportunities to be courageous?

If you pray for your family to be closer,
do u think that God is absent of warm fuzzy feelings,
or He gives opportunities to love more?


...

so, maybe

If i asked for diligence,
God gives me time & space,
and finally puts in a little restriction, criticism, and loads of encouragement.

If i asked for rest,
he shows me the unnecessary baggage that can be put off.

If i asked for love,
He puts me in a group of people who love,
and another group that needs love.

If i asked for companionship,
he throws in a little surprise,
and in the end,
shows me that even if I stand silent,
I'm never alone.

If I asked for a better life,
or, life.
well..
one day i'll get an answer for that... =)

Lifehouse - 'Everything' skit

thks, pei pei.



"You have to watch the end... I don't know who put this together nor do I know when or where. All I know is they did a tremendous job and for some this skit could be life changing."

Find Me Here
Speak To Me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
You are the light
That's leading me
To the place where I find peace again.

You are the strength, that keeps me walking.
You are the hope, that keeps me trusting.
You are the light to my soul.
You are my purpose...you're everything.

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

You calm the storms, and you give me rest.
You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall.
You steal my heart, and you take my breath away.
Would you take me in? Take me deeper now?

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Cause you're all I want, You're all I need
You're everything,everything
You're all I want your all I need
You're everything, everything.
You're all I want you're all I need.
You're everything, everything
You're all I want you're all I need, you're everything, everything.

And How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

pics

wow, seow ching's photo-taking skill is astonishing. this is danga bay, taken from her blog.
Sunset, everyday wonders.


next, my school n future workplace. just right behind that dark building. middle, white thing is mrt station.


3 mins away, the famous hotel, river & bridge. my favourite 'breathe & think' place, beautiful at night.


night scene, from another perspective.

14 hours

what a Sunday it has been. came early to church to guide a new drummer in drumming, only to find that he didn't turn up, how disappointing. but it was ok, replace jmond for a short while before he showed up for duty; then i happily go CBC to play drums, surprised to see that i'm the only musician there. am i missing something?

even so, it's always great to play in CBC, cos people are much more simple, and it's easy to worship. oh ya, and kids are so cute, until you get to know them, lol.

after that, sermon... highlight of the day - meeting Joel & Rebecca, =) it's been so long, words are few. ... ... his snapping habit is still there though, haha. i remember many yrs ago when we hang around in english service, going out wif a bunch of guys, bowling, s'pore zoo - laughed at the baboons, saying that their red big butts is butt cancer.

.. heh heh.. sigh...

had album practice.. went to work, 10.45pm. went to a Bday party at howard's place, 12am.


it's been a long day, and i still feel tired now, monday morning.


different phases every few years, how much more does it have to change?

transform.

*yawn* .. tomorrow's teenz again. 3rd week of manners month.. next month street-e again.. autobots, move out.

feeling like a slow 'manual-bot'.

Shadowfeet - Brooke Fraser

Shadowfeet

Walking,stumbling on these shadowfeet
toward home, a land that I've never seen
I am changing: less and less asleep
made of different stuff than when i began
and i have sensed it all along
fast approaching is the day

[CHORUS]
when the world has fallen out from under me
I'll be found in you, still standing
when the sky rolls up and mountains fall on their knees
when time and space are through
I'll be found in you

Theres distraction buzzing in my head
saying in the shadows it's easier to stay
but I've heard rumours of true reality
whispers of a well-lit way



You make all things new

[CHORUS 2]
When the world has fallen out from under me
I'll be found in you, still standing
Every fear and accusation under my feet
when time and space are through
I'll be found in you

like that

day come and go as i do my stuffs, settle some delayed things. study accounts, write exam paper for my drum students, recover from flu. learning to be almost totally independent n really grow up. i like the mixture of international students in class, where singaporeans aren' t the majority, and not the chinese either, but i'm the only m'sian. :(

students from vietnam, maldives, china, india, brunei, indonesia, myanmar, nepal. and lecturer's from UK, outstanding lecturer, and very humorous. so that's the popular college i'm attending in raffles place. dunno y i rarely talk about my studies that happen on weekdays. erm, i study accountancy; tax, financial reporting, strategic business planning & development, professional ethics, and business analysis for this june-dec 2007 period. (a lot of case study in my studies, companies like Enron, arthur anderson, NKF, the body shop, ikea..)
i don't stay in s'pore, i travel in-out everyday, like my bro.
every sunday afternoon till night i teach drums in another church, as a part-time income.
.my life.


i still enjoy a cool breeze of sea wind on a beach, over the setting sun n under a simple kite. but need company la, similar to alan's plight, ha.


the song you hear is from Hillsong's latest album (Saviour King). one of the songs that caught my attention. singer is Brooke Fraser - NZ n australia's no.1 pop artist, titus told me. nice voice n writes good lyrics.


alan put this poem in his blog a long while ago, nice poem..
hope that i could write like that one day, to express well in words.

Forgetfulness




The Poem - The name of the author is the first to go followed obediently by the title, the plot, the heartbreaking conclusion, the entire novel which suddenly becomes one you have never read, never even heard of, as if, one by one, the memories you used to harbor decided to retire to the southern hemisphere of the brain, to a little fishing village where there are no phones. Long ago you kissed the names of the nine Muses goodbye and watched the quadratic equation pack its bag, and even now as you memorize the order of the planets, something else is slipping away, a state flower perhaps, the address of an uncle, the capital of Paraguay. Whatever it is you are struggling to remember, it is not poised on the tip of your tongue, not even lurking in some obscure corner of your spleen. It has floated away down a dark mythological river whose name begins with an L as far as you can recall, well on your own way to oblivion where you will join those who have even forgotten how to swim and how to ride a bicycle. No wonder you rise in the middle of the night to look up the date of a famous battle in a book on war. No wonder the moon in the window seems to have drifted out of a love poem that you used to know by heart.

One.

looking back at the days when i used to play old video games like mario, when the level gets higher and i kept 'dying' till the last life remaining, a few emotions tensed up within me. Sometimes i get very nervous and freeze up, at times i lose hope and 'simply' play, other times, i try very hard to stay alive and be very stressed up; and at one time, i have fun playing, and enjoy the game while it lasts.


today, i thought of my remaining lives.



one.











only one.

What we do in this life, echoes in eternity..

.

hiding place

i find that one of the ways to make myself really attentive during Sunday sermons is to assume that i need to do sermon sharing during the next TnT cell group time.

what pst dennis shared this morning struck me as i was listening, lol-ing and jotting down notes..
relationship with Christ should far exceed serving. lately boon n wah have been emphasizing this, with Jim Yost coming soon during missions month n the 40 days fast & prayer till our nation's 50th independence anniversary. i think.. heh

i was having a wonderful "after-meal" with tnt buddies, sitting around a long table savouring/wiping out leftover wedding food, happily chatting with Ming Hui; but a phone call jolted me out of the chatter spirit, back into a forgotten meeting schedule. I excused myself and was silently awaken by a phrase by Ming Hui: "oh, again ar, bye.."

"where got 'again', only this time lor.."

"only this time? yesterday's cell also like that lor, quickly share TAWG then need to go off"


that few sentences imploded in my head, kept wondering in my mind for a while, and finally settled down in peace when i heard dennis' sermon this sunday morning.




Hiding place.





when the world coughs up a storm, when time races you inevitably to the next phase in life, when insecurity n hurts stamps its place in the deepest corner of the heart.

I can find rest in my saviour n God, and he will renew me in his likeness.


Be purified and one day, soon, be able to say that your love is better than wine.

serenity with hurts

This would be the prayer for my next 5 yrs.


God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
-Reinhold Niebuhr


and probably, God grant me the wisdom how to handle & accept people that has a selfish heart n lousy mouth.

start to understand why there is a quote like:
"I love mankind, it's humans that i can't stand."

“So clean house! Make a clean sweep of malice and pretense, envy and hurtful talk. You’ve had a taste of God. Now, like infants at the breast, drink deep of God’s pure kindness. Then you’ll grow up mature and whole in God.”

1 Peter 2:1-3