The Christmas of 2007

There are so many things and i'll try to recall them chronologically. lately getting lazy to put thoughts into organised words. so here goes flying thoughts.


Before Christmas day

Was caught up in some practices for the tebrau jusco performance with my dear bro and other 2 musicians from bilingual service, just played for the one at permas jusco and felt pumped up for another christian one in public.

it's nice to be involved in tough drumming during the final night rally. seeing them all, especially dancers sweating practices for months for 3 nights for God, the strong bond between them, it was special, something i haven't seen in a while, and missed.

after tebrau jusco, ke lun (the dance director) asked me to play solo of Mighty To Save to help build "omph" for the dancers, that was 2 days before and i was nervous cos i need to be professional enough - to be able to do it perfectly without any prior practice. I couldn't spoil the dancers' 3 months of effort. listened and wrote scores for it.

the week was all food, almost every dinner. it was very fulfilling - my stomach was happy but with a tear - too much doesn't equal too good.
fellowship is fantastic, though i can't remember.. oh.. this is bad.

I watched this 2007 movie called "The Ultimate Gift".
and i find myself watching the BEST movie of my life.


this is the soundtrack:




The last night rally is good, too bad not many ppl came to Christ, but i believed that it sowed good seeds. I am glad that i played well, i see the dancers so happy and clapping and shouting "praise the Lord" after it ends. Should have look to God more during the drum solos..

I'm glad that i am blurring the line that i serve in english service or bilingual.


Christmas day.

well, after receiving sara's thank-you email, i'm glad that i involved another 2 drummers to play in the eng service rally. thomas is going off very soon, and he deserves a whack at the drums during christmas, hee. well, i have this feeling that i won't be in eng ser for too long, even without this feeling, it's always good to train new blood. the prospect of english service new drummers is a silent tsunami. A future problem that needs to be addressed yesterday. and i always felt i didn't do enough, though nobody's saying or asking me to do anything.



Rally is fantastic.
i think it's the most ppl coming back to Christ, ever, in english service history.

i witness God's amazing grace, that is not by power, but by God's super spirit. yay-ness =)

pastry is sedap, sara's candy is nice - kept me awake during sermon, cos i was so tired. i'm happy about the few small n nice gifts that i received, cookies, little jar, chocolate and the "monkey" pen, and some sms-es.
"hey, the invisible man got gifts!"


the tnt barbeque night is unforgettable. i won't forget the times listening to people, seeing smiles, laughters, with christmas songs playing and me munching on turkey & lamb with so many 'ang-moh' sauces. God brought me unexpected friends in such a short time.

my only regret is not spending time alone with God to celebrate his birthday.


oh ya, also spent time talking to Ke Tyng, her testimony, and about God's move that is going to change the church on 2008. heh, as i'm typing this it looks so spiritual.. haha. wassup...



After christmas

movies, c-s, zoo with cell group. lots of fun with less sleep, woo hoo!
more food coming..





I am happy, that everyday is a gift.

pre-rumble to Christmas

Seems that there are so many things to do & enjoy while christmas is coming to town. I really enjoyed the CSI game. Seeing the commitment of those ppl, like grace, anne, jeff, boon&ann, ke tyng, ken, raymond.. Their silent effort inspired me to do more for the sake of the gospel.

Chin Lee from my tnt cell really amazed me by bringing 4 friends to the game. I can see how everybody contribute their little or much to the whole event, it wonderful to witness the great Architect putting together little lives that compounded impact on the lives around them.

=)

while reading is educational & considered fun, typing is a donkey-chore, i would like to order a machine that types thoughts and vision fast, if God sells them. The holocaust is so much bigger than i thought, one of the most documented piece of history in the world. Some people spent half their lifetime researching & documenting. there are more than 10 Holocaust museums in the whole world..

i find that my writing is really bad in comparison with the writers and decided to copy the parts that i find informative and heart-warming, or heart-wrenching.

next, coming up, is tonight's ITC ex-SPM students' gathering. Tomorrow is ITC teachers' appreciation, followed (the day after) by Cell Group's christmas dinner n celebration of hope.



Hear ye,
carols of stomachs. =)

project@life

just finished watching the 3+hour long movie: Schindler's List, visited the bugis reference library and read some books on the holocaust, some really horrific details left me sleepless, slept late n woke up at 3am, sigh, but it's a good challenge & life-changing.. my first self-initiated project and it's so difficult (than expected) to put it into words...

i'm so excited abt christmas, hope that everything will wrap up nicely.. =)

tomorrow's (sat) going to be a busy day.
morning go help repair roof at kulai, then 1pm prac for teenz, 6pm prac for xmas@tebrau jusco, 7pm prac for night service, 10pm prac for jusco permas.

quite fun, a good break from studying. but then, january is too soon.
next week gotha spend some time reading, thinking & writing abt the project, trying to finish everything b4 christmas.

hey, seems that, I'm old.

heh.



gosh, time flies.

The holocaust project

Tomorrow's gonna be my last day of exam, and before college commences again in early Jan 2008, besides preparing for christmas celebration & the performance@Jusco (with bilingual service), i'm going to do a simple project/research for myself in understanding the holocaust. words will be written by myself & i'll attach photos or maybe videos too.

effectively from 13-31 Dec '07

click below:
the holocaust project (Dec 2007)


meanwhile.. "air-tap" guitaring:

If someone were to approach me and asked what I have learned this year or also for the past 2 years, I would pause and think, let memories of dusk sweep over me like petals of unforgettable fragrance and pain, and say.. I learned that life is, when you give away and expect nothing back, but taste the pinch of sweetness, a remembrance of someone who gave away everything on the cross. And I learned, that focus is everything. I also learned that today is the most beautiful, not yesterday, not tomorrow. Lastly, never, never... never ever think of giving up.

Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian (May 2008)

New World Order, Antichrist

A very good sermon. to me, it seems to be accurate historically, scientifically, theologically; and the way he presents it brings edification & not fear, and at the end extends a loving invitation to receive Christ. though i'm not sure abt his views about the Toronto revival.

nice =)

Some good exposure & food for thought for the holiday season.


I've put his profile in "replies" below.

(70+ mins)





New World Order - Israel In Prophesy (59 mins)

Angels in bundles

I was quite quite happy & relaxed on this Sunday noon, just came back from Layang-layang Church this morning (followed my parents to that small church to minister), played drums and shared my testimony before sermon.

But as I made that 1 hour trip back home, the reality of the next day's exam set in, I got really depressed and all sorts of other stresses start streaming in. Although I have good grades for SPM, but my college results have been a real roller-coaster ride, and I developed super great fear for my ACCA (association of chartered certified accountants) exams, (even when I am prepared for exams).



I didn't attend Dav&Nec's wedding lunch, rest a while at home, and went to Plaza Pelangi's Coffee Bean to do my last revision. I wondered if God really cared, amongst the mission trips & weddings, if I am someone who is always on and off God's radar of attention & guidance. After 4 years of skipping TEENz camp & overseas mission trips (coz of exam), and sometimes feeling lost in my spiritual life & direction, I have doubts on myself.

Sms-ed titus (best buddy), asked him to come over to talk a bit to "de-stress", continue studying, feeling the effects of super caffeine. And then came a whole bunch of TnT dudes, like waves, a few groups (surprise, surprise!). Some of them sat with me, others sat at nearby tables, chilling out after the heavy wedding lunch. Having them around seems like a totally bad idea for a last day revision, but somehow they make me feel a lot calmer to study, and some topics that the dudes at my table are chatting helped me to dispel some of my fears and doubts about God.

After a long while, they left, I studied a little while more, went home to have dinner & wrap up my studies.. knowing full well that with God, I'm never alone.

Because of you..

thks God..

Forget

just came back from layang-layang church on sunday. went there wif parents for a little exposure, mom played guitar & lead worship, i play drums, and later gave a testimony during sermon. was nice. Simple. Just nice & simple.


As exams are coming soon (tomorrow), negative thoughts come like 'siao' to haunt me..

Torn between the regret of the past & resistance of living a new future, i think i lost my ability to love, and be my true self.. Sometimes don't know what's wrong with myself..

But God, be there. I know you will..