Working - looking

This might be my final entry.
There might be a hiatus for a few days/months/years?

And if you are thinking how is he (me) now, he is most likely to be working, or working overtime, night swimming at the orchard condo, taking night classes, self-studying, chatting with his roommates, or listening to music. Nothing else, on the outside.

Inside, the mind just keeps thinking about life, how nice is the cool breeze, work, accounting issues/updates, trying to do his work well & impress the boss, wondering where does life go on from here, church ministry, how are my friends doing, how's family, little inner conflicts, finance issues, analysing the next batch of music, talking to God, learning to appreciate the deviation of dreams and little things in life..

And once in a while, smiling rather sheepishly. heh heh =)


I felt that this won't be the ending ba. After more than 2 weeks without the internet, having to check email at cyber cafe every morning & night (besides seeing young ppl indulging in cyber world & a mom ridiculously treating the place as a daycare), I lost the appetite to blog. Thoughts venture into conversations with parents, friends and mentor instead, which is healthier ba.

Lately God has spoken through dreams, interesting dreams, the latest one (few nights ago) is Morgan Freeman saying to me: "You must die to yourself." This dream i can remember for a long time..

When I think back of the past month it's like a huge but quick whirlwind: pressing on hard for exams, looking a job, finding one, and now waiting for the approval of singapore work permit.. Praise God for the amazing journey through it all and starting a new chapter in my life.


Looking at the survey at the upper right hand section, maybe at my age (23) is really a good time to enjoy life. When it is still a tad early to be anxious looking for a partner, when you're a freshie full of energy to conquer the world, when the phase of angst & hating your teenage life is over, when you have learned to accept and walk with a little more faith in God over circumstances.


There is less sentimental music.
aniticipate life, lah.

~la.



When living streams flow through the desert, even the most hopeless soul sings.




Desert Song

VERSE 1:

This is my prayer in the desert
When all that's within me feels dry
This is my prayer in my hunger and need
My God is the God who provides

VERSE 2:

This is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved
Of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flame

CHORUS:

I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here

VERSE 3:

This is my prayer in the battle
When triumph is still on its way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I'll stand

BRIDGE:

All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship

VERSE 4:

This is my prayer in the harvest
When favour and providence flow
I know I'm filled to be emptied again
The seed I've received I will sow