Found in You

There are many things that could warm a heart; by having a fulfilling career, great family, lovely partner, beautiful children, close friendships. A home, a house, a fun car, all-round growing ministry.

But above these desires, I am found in You. I am found in You. And I'll live the life You want me to.

Our main business

‎"Our main business is not to see what lies dimly at a distance, but to do what lies clearly at hand."

~Thomas Carlyle

Father Samaan and Garbage City

This is a short documentary on Father Samaan and "Garbage City" where the Zabaleen of Egypt live. It is about the miraculous transformation of the people through Christ and the building of the Church in the Mokattam Mountain.

1st episode - done!

Today marks the end of 1st episode of this career in JB. Merging, assist to manage & now relocating back to main office for a combined accounting staff of 30+.

Had the best chicken rice in PG @ LAN coffee cafe..

Next, SAP & new consolidation pack. Waiting & hoping to be posted soon.

This is the video that will make me work harder, much harder

Joy

The joy of the Lord is my strength.

Falling apart

There is a very fragile thin line holding everything outside the family. I am a bad juggler in rubber balls like ministry, work & studies. Say work, well I have been sick 3 times already and once waking up at 4am to do work but to find myself falling back to sleep again every hour until 7am and later show up in office tired. Bad stress management. Ministry - I have not been follow through "-ing" completely. Bad ministry partner. Studies - who knows what can this guy come up with - been so smart to study at McD from 7-8.30am before a 10-12hrs work day, eventually burning himself up to fall sick and look sickly tired at work. Bad time management.

If not for the grace of God, the guy sitting a few feet away from you is quietly falling apart. What I am, the things He has made beautiful in my life, in His time, it's all Him. No me.

Going to sleep, too much in mind. Got a feeling, something's gonna burn up soon.

窗外瞭望

窗外瞭望

晨雾茫茫
缓缓升起太阳
匆匆一天开场
有人已经在忙，有人才刚起床
后脚还在梦乡，前脚踩进天光
当我将双眼闭上
一条泪河
窜流中央...

Names

There are a handful of names going thru my head soon, names unheard of in CBC, probably seen before in person but not knowing them. This thing leads from handling the band, no choice. On a separate matter, I am happy to safely say my music collection is now complete.

As for the singers for the band, think Glee. Probably.

Ps 39

“Show me, LORD, my life’s end
and the number of my days;
let me know how fleeting my life is.
You have made my days a mere handbreadth;
the span of my years is as nothing before you.
Everyone is but a breath,
even those who seem secure."

“Surely everyone goes around like a mere phantom;
in vain they rush about, heaping up wealth
without knowing whose it will finally be."

the beautiful weekend

sister came back.

went for a malay wedding luncheon with dad n sis, thereafter visited the monash medical campus in the hospital, admire the colonial architecture. drove around old town area, admiring beautiful houses and had great time with dad.

Ming Soon came by our house for a while, he shared his joy of praying to God and getting his desires, got an A for UPSR malay and gotten entry to English College - meaning don't have to leave home to the vocational school for handicapped in KL.

heard from sis about his mom's testimony, a powerful word from God in the book of John about the story of the blind man, being born blind not because of the parent's sins but for the glory of God. She cried n cried after reading this..

celebrated sis' n dad's birthday.
attended company's annual dinner.

still had outstanding office work though. massive stress after being informed after sat night.

missed wmm committee meeting, missed church's vision casting meeting, missed david n nec's farewell party. missed sun service's sermon. missed socializing with friends. settled part of christmas prac, still settling christmas' youth band arrangement - more than i expected, hope will be great for the kids.

watched online new life church sermon. Learned about the greatest desire of God, expounded from Genesis, Ezekiel and Isaiah. cried.

cell group was great too.

find myself kept listening to this song.. find lots of comfort in tiredness..

Rubber-band life

Another long day at work, near those make-it-or-break-it days..

Life feels like a big big rubber-band, it never stops stretching.

Got a feeling that it's the start of the next great 10-year cycle. Tough but unexpectedly fulfilling, again the road less travelled?

The Here and Now and Not Yet

What prosperity gospel gets right, what suffering theology gets wrong, how both miss the point.. reading..

http://glennpackiam.typepad.com/my_weblog/2010/11/the-here-and-now-and-not-yet.html

Loved

opps, falling sick again.. too much too much....



"I like not only to be loved, but also to be told that I am loved. I am not sure that you are of the same kind. But the realm of silence is large enough beyond the grave. This is the world of literature and speech and I shall take leave to tell you that you are very dear."
-G.Eliot


I thank God that during this Sunday's worship, out of the many things He could have said, He reassured that I am loved.

And the 2nd best thing that happened is that my best friend asked "how are you?". It has been a long while, I can't remember when's the last that somebody asked how am I as the start and content of a whole conversation.


Glee

Dreams

I guess the ownership and clarity of dreams would move me forward.

Sesame Street - drums

Kermit interviews Animal, discussing his influences and his love of drums. When animal mentions that he likes to eat his drums, Kermit says, “How ‘cymballic’,” prompting Animal to yell, “Bad pun! Bad pun!” Kermit decides not to replace Animal with a new drummer, Tony Checkers, after Animal beats Kermit senseless.

• During the first drum solo on this compilation, Animal plays so fast that his drums go up in flames.
• The second drum duet is a classic drum-off between the great Buddy Rich and Animal. Buddy Rich’s talents cause Animal’s jaw to drop open, before he throws a drum at Buddy’s head in a fit of rage. This is one of the best Sesame Street sketches of all-time, AND it displays examples of rudimental techniques combined with great showmanship.
• Animal shows how overplaying can annoy the other musicians in the band (and the audience). The singer Rita Moreno, is not impressed with Animal’s hilariously out-of-control playing during the song, “Fever.” When an aggravated Rita tells Animal to chill, he decides to play in an even louder and out of control manner.

Campus dreams

If I were to take my course on a full-time basis rather than online, this would be the place I frequent for lectures. Goodbye, campus dreams. Hereon to the professional working world..

great movie for deepavali =)

sofa chair room

i could use a comfy sofa-chair & calming lights in the room..

romanticize, london skies

Heartbreak truth

You are not your own

"...The first thing God does is get us grounded on strong reality and truth. He does this until our cares for ourselves individually have been brought into submission to His way for the purpose of His redemption. Why shouldn’t we experience heartbreak? Through those doorways God is opening up ways of fellowship with His Son. Most of us collapse at the first grip of pain. We sit down at the door of God’s purpose and enter a slow death through self-pity. And all the so-called Christian sympathy of others helps us to our deathbed. But God will not. He comes with the grip of the pierced hand of His Son, as if to say, “Enter into fellowship with Me; arise and shine.” If God can accomplish His purposes in this world through a broken heart, then why not thank Him for breaking yours?"

~Oswald Chambers

The Switch

every once in a while in all randomness, something unexpected happens and it pushes us all forward; and the truth is, when i'm starting to think, when i'm starting to feel, is that maybe the human race isn't a race at all.

If i were to be a singer, i'll be..

Khalil Fong.

方大同

when u can't get enough of the same song

The 6 greetings

1) Oh my goodness it's so hard to find young musicians that are willing to practice, i don't even require much talent, none are willing to prac, very few find passion in the joy of music-making or worship. goodness will the next musical generation cease to survive..

2) yay, the holding company launches its first sustainability report today! In accordance with the Global Initiative Report, finally the world's leading edible oil manufacturer has put environmental and social responsibility on paper to satisfy the larger stakeholders.. hope that tomorrow won't be too tiring.. big report to prepare with my inexperienced mind.. goodness i still have to prepare for the coming exam too and prevent myself from falling sick again..

3) it just started raining now at 10.30pm, the rain falls down, breaking the tangled rambutan leaves to the ground, or the rusty zink covering outside my room, produces an incomprehensible serenity to be enjoyed lying on the bed with utter silence. Not one word to be spoken after breathing in the wet, fresh whisk of sky, breathing out sheer delight.

4) i find stewardship management to be fairly effective in corporate leadership and also in ministry. Not that it is a great method, but a great lifestyle.


5) oh my goodness look at that little kid, can she get any cuter than this?

6) how are you? =)

There are only very few close friends who can understand that these 6 things can come out from the same person at the same time if he chooses to... maybe it's preferable that i stay single for now, lol.