Wednesday, October 29, 2008

When everything..

Today, came back from work, my eyes fading after a week's worth of computer screen-watching putting it all in a day, dragging my feet here n there, went for a swim, today.. had no heart to study.. also had no motivation to think of drums, music, tax, accounts, except a little messy and casual poetry, inspired by Josh Groban's "my heart was home again"... the past few weekends, and days, getting more and more jaded. I guess besides JB home, i missed being home again, where i used to come to God just like that ("snap fingers")... maybe later i'll spend some time doing just that....



When everything comes back,
like water back to snow in streams flowing,
right to falling autumn with its leaves dropping,
joy and tears, across from its heart,
to its heart yearning.

i remember everything, akin to every window pane's memory,
it's vision of dream-like sunsets, wishful cleaning and fear of breaking,
every word and life came back to me the way it used to be,
from a Christmas betrayed to night beach star-view delight,
crouched beneath my mind,
some like a depressed hobbit, some like a innocent child in a playground,
filled with footprints in the sand, time-washed in waves and waves of true reality or self-perceived time.

where is my penny in my 3-yr old pocket,
i recall and sang even in troubles,
but now...

So it goes, history shows,
the desert must expand.
Rise and fall, bite the dust or shine in all vain glory.
walks stone hearts in clogs across all overly decorated valleys.
..

There's a bus that leaves at 8.15 and another at 10,
should i climb aboard, risk everything,
and ride it to the end.
Watch the hills like rollercoasters up against the sky,
saw how the eagles fly.

I couldn't take the bumpy journey, could i stop by, take a breather, be by myself and supposedly live life.

Been thinking, wondering, been asking why.

Monday, October 27, 2008

How the stock market works

How the Stock Market Works

Monkeys

Once upon a time in a village, a man appeared and announced to the villagers that he would buy monkeys for $10 each. The villagers seeing that there were many monkeys around, went out to the forest, and started catching them. The man bought thousands at $10 and as supply started to diminish, the villagers stopped their effort. He further announced that he would now buy at $20. This renewed the efforts of the villagers and they started catching monkeys again.

Soon the supply diminished even further and people started going back to their farms. The offer increased to $25 each and the supply of monkeys became so little that it was an effort to even see a monkey, let alone catch it! The man now announced that he would buy monkeys at $50! However, since he had to go to the city on some business, his assistant would now buy on behalf of him. In the absence of the man, the assistant told the villagers.

"Look at all these monkeys in the big cage that the man has collected. I will sell them to you at $35 and when the man returns from the city, you can sell them to him for $50 each."

The villagers rounded up with all their savings and bought all the monkeys. Then they never saw the man, nor his assistant again, only monkeys everywhere!

Now you have a better understanding of how the stock market works.

 

Saturday, October 25, 2008

There's a hero

Last friday was my happiest working day, going for the SGX Bull Run with the corporate team, ran the 3.2km around raffles place & across the esplanade bridge, get goodie bags & free drinks, and the bosses treat us all to yummy chicken & mutton satay, egg "hao jian", sugarcane, beer & stuffs. It's like mamak, except that i'm sitting in between the Directors & with the night ambience & breeze soaking in, amidst the joke & laughters, i am glad i work here. =)

Oh yeah, about the marathon, it was great, my first time participating in an official run, which has all the fla-flahs - the air-horn start with man blowing fires to heat it up, mediacorp artistes, radio DJs, numerous corporate sponsors... ya, all the fla-flahs..

how my leg aches now.. heh heh.

There are many other things in my mind which i am lazy to talk about, the awesome BBQ at Jacq's house, meeting the professional drummers from KL who are going to do a drum shed session (jam session) tomorrow @ Vineyard, catching up with friends, rushing to help buy a grand cake for my best friend GF's birthday, having to help light up 24 candles, seeing the glow on their faces.. how God put words in my mouth to talk during TEENz CG to encourage the members (u know i can't talk long).

Sometimes it feels like there are a hundred things going on and i have to put it in segments, daily, in order to remain sane; work, study & church. I'm happy that i still can come home to family during the weekends.

So, the weeks fly by and exams are coming soon.. Hark the humming of a mindless brain going through all the years of failures, picking up and studying again.

Enjoy the below. Cheers.

Janice & Sonya (koreans in Sydney)



Ginny Owens, my fav christian artise






Can I have this dance (HSM3)




Grace Cavalieri (1937– )

Dates

The silver from my mother’s mirror
gleams its stories
toward a light which drops and never breaks.
It says to tell the truth and

permanently shining, brings forth
an original day bright as this one
where children and other small creatures
played without threat

but the child’s story is never without fear—is it—
and seems to be made of remainders which either
want for love or some relief from it.

In the third grade the pyramids were presented to us
by Miss O’Malley
so kind that she would—
in honor of learning—
give us the key to Egypt
if she could.
Who would like to bring dates for all to taste?
Who can do this on the lunch hour? she asked.
Naturally I
—who could not imagine how—
said I would—
and, like a child with enough money to spend, ran
home with only one hour, one hour to ease
my dear mother who probably had
little money in the house, yet who bravely asked
“Shouldn’t you buy two packages for the class”
I said No.
Love and fear divided in my mind between
an ocean of children
and my mother’s troubled face,
“One package is all I need” I lied,
“Someone else will bring the rest”
(Children spend so much time persuading—
no wonder no one believes them).
Eight dates for twenty children
which would taste so sweet—
Miss O’Malley, always kind, cut the tiny squares
and I kept interrupting, hoping they
wouldn’t notice. After all
there wasn’t water in the land of pyramids . . . was
there . . . and
not too many trees,
probably hungry people and small rations there as well.

That day every one of us was a reflection of the other—
the children who ate their portions,
the mother at home worrying about her daughter’s gift,
the child thinking about her mother’s face,
and Miss O’Malley who, kind and earnest,
taught us all about a hardy people in an arid land
who gave what they had and could give nothing more.

© 1990, Grace Cavalieri, Trenton
grateful acknowlegement to Belle Mead Press



Gerard Manley Hopkins (1844–1889)

God's Grandeur

The world is charged with the grandeur of God.
It will flame out, like shining from shook foil;
It gathers to a greatness, like the ooze of oil
Crushed. Why do men then now not reck his rod?
Generations have trod, have trod, have trod;
And all is seared with trade; bleared, smeared with toil;
And wears man's smudge and shares man's smell: the soil
Is bare now, nor can foot feel, being shod.

And for all this, nature is never spent;
There lives the dearest freshness deep down things;
And though the last lights off the black West went
Oh, morning, at the brown brink eastward, springs—
Because the Holy Ghost over the bent
World broods with warm breast and with ah! bright wings.

Friday, October 24, 2008

When compliments come from Dr M & his wife..

Put it in short, Dr M & his wife went to melbourne, a gala dinner held for them at richest suburb of Melbourne, my bro played a medley of patriotic songs, Malay folk songs, popular songs and also a church song.

Later the wife called for him, complimented him, chatted for a few mins, my bro also had a few words with Dr M.


Nice! =)

Saturday, October 18, 2008

Nights in Rodanthe



I'm so glad that i get a "come-or-die" (jokin') with my best friend & his GF to watch this movie with me this coming thursday. It's been a long while since i watch a movie in the cinema, and for those who know me know that i love to watch sappy/deep movies that sometimes only girls would love to watch (hooyay & boohoo). ai ya, hopefully this movie's moral values don't go down the drain..

Well, sappy/deep movies, lots of music & lame jokes, compute tax for corporate clients & play drums professionally makes a good Victor :P

can't wait, yay!



And the next one i will definitely watch (dvd) is..
RENT. =)




Seasons of Love ("Rent" music video)



ALL
Five hundred twenty-five thousand
Six hundred minutes,
Five hundred twenty-five thousand
Moments so dear.
Five hundred twenty-five thousand
Six hundred minutes
How do you measure, measure a year?

In daylights, in sunsets, in midnights
In cups of coffee
In inches, in miles, in laughter, in strife.

In five hundred twenty-five thousand
Six hundred minutes
How do you measure
A year in the life?

How about love?
How about love?
How about love? Measure in love

Seasons of love. Seasons of love

HOMELESS WOMAN
Five hundred twenty-five thousand
Six hundred minutes!
Five hundred twenty-five thousand
Journeys to plan.

Five hundred twenty-five thousand
Six hundred minutes
How do you measure the life
Of a woman or a man?

COLLINS
In truths that she learned,
Or in times that he cried.
In bridges he burned,
Or the way that she died.

ALL
It's time now to sing out,
Tho' the story never ends
Let's celebrate
Remember a year in the life of friends
Remember the love!
Remember the love!
Seasons of love!

HOMELESS WOMAN (while ALL sing)
Oh you got to got to
Remember the love!
You know that love is a gift from up above
Share love, give love spread love
Measure measure your life in love.

Sunday, October 12, 2008

FoodFair '08 & heart.

I think it all went well, i thoroughly enjoyed the weekend, though it's a little tiring. Seeing the TEENz tirelessly working everything to perfection, the decorations, dance, DJ-ing music, coordinating; the food being prepared; the fellowship enjoyed, satisfaction of serving God.

I had fun being with friends, cell group, I hate that it's all over now, have to drag my feet back to Singapore tonight =(

heh heh. I so glad to see Esther back for a while, with the cool group manning the photography stall. I love the company of alan, wei wan, my sis, alvin, ah lum, my cell members, danny, boon fei, angela, yan, and so many others. I think I really will start to miss people, last time i used to think that i couldn't survive without some movies and internet, now i think i can't survive without some time with people, mainly just slacking off & crapping with my parents, sister, good buddies & friends. It keeps me sane from the weekday mill run, or slogging off in the office & studying at night.

Being with people makes me feel human again :)
haha.

This morning I woke up early for foodfair & i was tremendously rewarded by this big, warm & orangy sun rise while on the way to church, so beautiful, especially when it's overlooking Taman Sentosa & the bridge to Permas Jaya. You can hear the 'wows' in the car from my sis n I.

I wonder if all these can last, friends do come & go like the rising & setting of the sun, everytime it happens & it's similar but different.

Time passes by fast, suddenly i am working & living a lonely city life, to & fro Raffles Place / Tanjong Pagar and Orchard Road everyday. Yet I feel unchanged.


Ever seen time & people fly by, grew up, and felt like your own life snail-pacing in a different path? Remembered His verse about our lives, like morning dew that stays only in a while and fades away.

I blinked, and my holiday's over, favourite movies turn 10 years-old, I work, my weekend's over, my old dreams evolved away, tasty fast foods become bland, life turned its face.

What is life and its supposed responsibility that summoned me out of my true phase?

Be changed, be ever changed, ever renewed in You, see from Your eyes, that you are good, ever good, ever loving, ever there, here, with me. That I am forever in your plans & arms, and i can ever see your face.

Your promises are true for me to live another day.

Friday, October 10, 2008

Home.. quick writings.

--


"Meet me by Paddington's",
In the sweetest smile by Audrey.
"Remember, that bookstore? Where I kinda spilled my..",

Ice-cream. How could I forget,
You used to absorb your mind in "book-bookies",
Dropped your favourite flavour,
don't mind the floor,
I have to clean up the tears.
(Chuckles)
"Forgive your old man, you're always little."

"So, we're gonna read some of those?"
Yeah, from fiction to poetry,
To.. oh yeah, your fav, photography.

You know I have to drag my feet again to one of your..
"Com'on, you love it!",
(I was waiting for this response, it gets me everytime),

Let's go then, I have some spare change
in my pocketful of sunshine.




Snowflakes like raindrops under a dark sky covered by light,
Walking like under an umbrella covered in blight.
Just waiting to be home, a few steps more, to take off.


稻香



對這個世界如果你有太多的抱怨
跌倒了就不敢繼續往前走
為什麼人要這麼的脆弱 墮落
請你打開電視看看
多少人為生命在努力勇敢的走下去
我們是不是該知足
珍惜一切 就算沒有擁有

還記得你說家是唯一的城堡 隨著稻香河流繼續奔跑
微微笑 小時候的夢我知道
不要哭 讓螢火蟲帶著你逃跑
鄉間的歌謠永遠的依靠
回家吧 回到最初的美好

不要這麼容易就想放棄 就像我說的
追不到的夢想 換個夢不就得了
為自己的人生鮮艷上色 先把愛塗上喜歡的顏色
笑一個吧 功成名就不是目的
讓自己快樂快樂這才叫做意義
童年的紙飛機 現在終於飛回我手裡
所謂的那快樂 赤腳在田裡追蜻蜓追到累了
偷摘水果被蜜蜂給叮到怕了 誰在偷笑呢
我靠著稻草人吹著風唱著歌睡著了
哦 哦 午后吉他在蟲鳴中更清脆
哦 哦 陽光灑在路上就不怕心碎
珍惜一切 就算沒有擁有

還記得你說家是唯一的城堡 隨著稻香河流繼續奔跑
微微笑 小時候的夢我知道
不要哭讓螢火蟲帶著你逃跑 鄉間的歌謠永遠的依靠
回家吧 回到最初的美好

Wednesday, October 08, 2008

work & eat

These two days very stressed at work cos suddenly got a lot a lot of companies to handle..

 

Eat junk again in office today, junk food bought in Japan by one of the managers, in a small packet, got 9 different types of junk food, nice!!!  

Wednesday, October 01, 2008

accapella & beatbox in the train

1997 Boy band. nice singing, just don't watch too long, ha.



People Get Ready

People get ready
There's a train a-comming
You don't need no baggage
Just a-get on board
All you need is faith
To hear the deisel hummin'
You don't need no ticket no no
Just thank the Lord
People get ready
For the train to Jordon
It's picking up passengers
From coast to coast
Faith is the key
Open the doors and board on
There's room for all
Amongst who love the most

There ain't no room
For the hopeless sinner
Who would hurt all mankind
Just to save his own
Have pity on those
Who's chances grow thinner
There's no hiding place
In the kingdom's throne

People get ready
(people get ready)
People get ready
(c'mon people)
People get ready
(woah)
People get ready

People get ready
(people get ready)
People get ready
(come i'll tell ya people)
People get ready
(woah)
People get ready

C'mon people get ready
There's a train a-comming
You don't need no baggage
Just a-get on board
All you need is some faith
To hear the deisel hummin'
You don't need no ticket no no
Just thank the Lord

C'mon people get ready
(people get ready)
There's a train a-comming
(train a-commin' - yeah)
You don't need no baggage
Just a-get on board
(no no)
All you need is some faith
(need is faith
To hear the deisel hummin'
(oh oh)
You don't need no ticket no no
(no ticket)
Just thank ..
Just thank the
Lord
We just thank the Lord







how i wish to witness this in the mrt..