Dare me to move

listened to that old song from album blog . and realised that i have the old file from my PC..
nice music, play if you have high-end broadband. I'm going off to Batam in a few hours.. bye.



Dare You To Move lyrics

Welcome to the planet
Welcome to existence
Everyone's here
Everyone's here
Everybody's watching you now
Everybody waits for you now
What happens next
What happens next

[Chorus]
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened before

Welcome to the fallout
Welcome to resistance
The tension is here
Tension is here
Between who you are and who you could be
Between how it is and how it should be

[Chorus]

Maybe redemption has stories to tell
Maybe forgiveness is right where you fell
Where can you run to escape from yourself?
Where you gonna go?
Where you gonna go?
Salvation is here

I dare you to move
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened
Today never happened
Today never happened before

Journey past the past

Alright, before i go off tomorrow afternoon for the 5-day prayer conference in Batam (mon-fri, 4 May), better write something for relaxation n contemplation.
Anyway, my parents are the ones going n they wanted me to bring myself along; while they had the art of persuasion, i guess it's not yet time to hone my inept reluctance.

kinda hoped that it will be a journey past my past, fully, and a big head start to the future..

where lonely, broken & lost heart meets great big heart.


haha, how is it like traveling to a foreign country like indonesia? does the food taste better, does the people pray harder? He sets out in a narrow view, for broader vision.


So because of my absence on monday night, gotha give replacement drum classes at Danga Bay on sunday night.
Don't know y, i have shaky hands, evident in photo-taking.
All these are taken at Danga Bay. there is mist above the sea.. at 7 pm!



















2 things i love about hot, sun-shiny days.
- Washed clothes are dried much faster
- and sunset skies are so much more beautiful... =)

skies like this make me real happy.. =]


outside my workplace. just right beside n outside. i like the little fountains. to the left is a rattan shop.

sometimes u can see some stars flickering above, decorating the moonlight.





































it is actually a good-looking jamming studio. ya, it's 'transparent'. So people tend to stop by & admire how cute or cool my students are. =P



akira jimbo is Japan's no.1 drummer.
funny guy.

















that person leaning on the grand piano is Chick Corea,
one of the greatest jazz/fusion pianist in the world.

And lastly, my water bottle.

Exclusion

heh heh, when i thought weekends couldn't be more tiring, then came the last weekend. My friend got stuck at s'pore custom at friday midnight n i hve to go there & drive the car for him. It was the 1st time i'm driving in s'pore, and i ended up going home at 4+am. slept for a few hours and the busiest day of the week began - saturday.

blahs..

on sunday, the P&W session was nice, i enjoyed playing 'How Great Is Our God' n stuffs.
went 'yam cha' with a good friend after giving tuition to form 3 students (i'm the occasional replacement teacher), and we talked loads. (argh, i missed wmm meeting's fun ice-breaker n boon fei's message!)

we chatted.. how times have changed and I am no longer teenager. Getting old n busy.. started teaching a lot n playing a different role now. Don't know why, i feel so 'everywhere' but nowhere, teenz, tnt, itc, english service, bilingual service, cbc; the feeling of exclusion, when things or events end, gone is the strong sense of belonging. ..

i recall teenz P&W last sat, where there was a time of waiting upon the Lord, very little music/noise.. everybody was quiet n worshipful. and the worship leader said: "God never forgets you". instantly tears of relief n love welled up n trickled down that forlorn soul standing right behind everybody.. like the comfort of a sincere hug, an unchanging promise of love..

why does he reek of lorn thoughts? probably because he saw people moving forward, going away, and felt excluded from all the good things intended in life.
how will he end up in the future? who knows.



...

few days ago went to rockschool seminar by Jeremy Ward from UK, attempted a mock exam on grade 6, gotten great reviews n learned quite a lot from his presentation, unique teaching n comments.

-going to Batam prayer conference with parents, 30 may-4 april (mon-fri), will be back in time for tnt cell. connecting wif God kaw kaw..

just bought this using bro's money.. the sound is so awesome.. =]



the subwoofer tower is more than a feet high, as wide as my fully-stretched palm. =P ok, mayb i'm 'sua gu', heh

used it to play 'pursuit of happyness' instrumental soundtracks, soooo nice.....



tribute to VT students, those who left without saying goodbye.

Stop & think

heh, interesting. "it's like listening to a good friend telling u a story"

watch if u're free for 15 mins

Just

was talking to a friend, and half-way through the conversation, i just felt so grateful about the events that's happening in church; the miraculous growth n stuffs, i recalled the many wonderful moments spent that are special.. but thereafter, tiredness crept in.

feels like you've done all you can but still, the train track hasn't reach its end. and all of life's contrast begins fading like old photography, bringing myself to something new that looks so awfully similar to the past.

maybe i am moving forward with my back, pacing forward by walking backwards; enjoying the view of a withering yore rather than breathing the fresh breeze of life.. i better turn around and face the light. And run.


Catching the train to rest?

"perasan" quiz & a vid

try this, it's cute (no tricks, don't worry)

start!

and this.. try not to laugh. ;-)

All that is for life on saturday

I'm tired, but i enjoyed some parts.

leave for church at 8.25am, teach drums 9am-12pm, gave replacement drums exams at 12.20pm. writes exam report wif aaron. listens to danny's explanation abt the concept short drama for teenz camp promotion. buys lunch. eats. practices and watch them act. 2pm. goes on. teenz service, no drummer, plays. sermon, look around for cell group members. think how and what to share during CG time later. thinks of ice-breaker while going to toilet, plays at CG time. lead those cute kids by introducing the '110' step into your new life. great time. 6pm. find sis, asks wat she wants for dinner. fetches cell member home, packs food for sis, eats alone fast. get back to church, prac for sat night service. plays. 8+pm. have another free dinner. gave a short interview.

13 hours spent.

Home.


wonder whether is it worth it, so busy and crazy. but of course it's not like this every sat, only today extra-packed.

bathe, visit teenz album blog n listen to Amanda Falk's "Small", wait for hair to dry,
sleep..

........ .... .....


and on the next day, uncle stephen passed away at late morning..
we practiced drums together for a short period when i was 14 yrs old...
he used to lead holy communion n do announcements in english service, sometimes cracking a joke.

and many weeks ago.. after many chemo therapies, he became bald; when i looked at him, he smiled at me n asked:

"do u like my new look?" =)


well, uncle stephen, i definitely will, when i see u again in heaven..




live like a flower quickly fading into eternity.

*thks, ABC, for the encouragement =)
writing simple crap..


Not as you thought so,
I am,
Speaking of wishes and living out dreams,
am I.
Without cars and souls,
all that is left, still is,
empty lots with Eddies,
and silhouette of pine trees.

Lift me up,
above my darkness in dusk,
To see on high,
the beauty of sky.

Watch world-class badminton?

I'm going to watch Badminton Asia Championships 2007 at JB Indoor Stadium on the coming Thursday night (12 April).

the 1st n 2nd round matches of our All-England Open Double Champions:
*Koo Kien Keat & Tan Boon Heong!


going with dad, sis, uncle Chung Wah, Benny, uncle Chong Hiang, n maybe will see Des Lum there.. care to join? ticket price = only RM10 =)

XD = mixed doubles
S = single
D = doubles
M = men
W = women

9.00 A.M.	XD
9.40 A.M.	XD
9.40 A.M	MS
10.20 A.M.	MS
11.00 A.M.	MS
11.40 A.M.	MD
12.20 NOON	MD
1.00 P.M.	MD*
6.30 P.M.	WS
7.10 P.M.	WS
7.10 P.M.	MS
8.30 P.M.	MS
8.30 P.M.	WD
9.10 P.M.	WD
9.50 P.M.	MD
10.20 P.M.	MD*

Unique phases

Sometimes i really feel sad to be walking in a different path from the others. When supposedly normal people will go to college that has a life, started working (full-time job), be involved in usual things and looked so happy.

It's a weird feeling to feel alone. It's great hanging out all the time with kids and teens and adults and old folks, but my heart felt the tinge when i see what people my age are doing.
And I wonder what in the world is going on while I seemed to orbit in a different lifestyle.

Sometimes I gave up trying because I don't have enough courage and foresight to imagine the little puzzle that contributes its significant role to the bigger picture. Although i know what i should do.. but i simply can't.. weakness is my scar and tumour which i drain my blood n tears to the drain. Like the picture, lying there in view of the sky but can't see beyond the dark, wide wall.

I really need God to understand me, because I feel that he doesn't understand me and i'm hiding my tears n hopelessness from him. So here I am, save me.

(by Rachel Lampa)

*click the "play" button at the right

(Verse 1:)
Your heart will always be my home
No matter where I go
No matter what may come
You'll be my shelter in the storm
A harbor safe and sound
Where only true forgiveness can be found

(Pre-chorus:)
But still
I wanna run away
Go it all alone
When will I ever learn from my mistakes


(Chorus:)
And I can't live without Your love
Cause Your eyes have seen beyond
The things I'm guilty of
I won't be afraid
To turn back down the road
Cause Your heart will always be my home


(Verse 2:)
And when I've cried a thousand tears
You've always wiped them dry
And watch me as I spread my wings and fly
To a place
Where holiness begins
And mercy never ends
And I will find my freedom once again


(Bridge:)
Your hands are always open
To catch me when I fall
I feel a million miles away
But thats no distance at all

You get it from my blog?!

It was a great weekend, and a tired one too, heh.

Saturday night's youth rally was great, overall it's good.
I love the drama, i like the sharing, i missed the atmosphere.

I was very shocked when Lum zai told me.. about the Jesus dying on the cross short film, played during the rally.. He got it from this blog, my previous blog entry! Wah, i'm honoured! haha..
thks to esther who asked me to search for it in UTube.


Sunday was fantastic too, a bunch of us went to holy light church to do P&W, was very good, dunno wat else to say.. more details check out teenzalbum blog la =]
then at night go teach drums fr 7-10pm.. tired. but..

wat a wonderful weekend! =)



this coming sat is youth concert, going to play, hehe..

better remember to bring ear plugs, my hearing is not very good after some years of hard-playing.


..

how i wish to play at some place like that. (pic)


when the sky is my only audience, hee.








anyway,
This is the CUTEST.. such good expression, she brightens the whole world. want to get her for teenz album recording? hahaha..