Unique phases

Sometimes i really feel sad to be walking in a different path from the others. When supposedly normal people will go to college that has a life, started working (full-time job), be involved in usual things and looked so happy.

It's a weird feeling to feel alone. It's great hanging out all the time with kids and teens and adults and old folks, but my heart felt the tinge when i see what people my age are doing.
And I wonder what in the world is going on while I seemed to orbit in a different lifestyle.

Sometimes I gave up trying because I don't have enough courage and foresight to imagine the little puzzle that contributes its significant role to the bigger picture. Although i know what i should do.. but i simply can't.. weakness is my scar and tumour which i drain my blood n tears to the drain. Like the picture, lying there in view of the sky but can't see beyond the dark, wide wall.

I really need God to understand me, because I feel that he doesn't understand me and i'm hiding my tears n hopelessness from him. So here I am, save me.

(by Rachel Lampa)

*click the "play" button at the right

(Verse 1:)
Your heart will always be my home
No matter where I go
No matter what may come
You'll be my shelter in the storm
A harbor safe and sound
Where only true forgiveness can be found

(Pre-chorus:)
But still
I wanna run away
Go it all alone
When will I ever learn from my mistakes


(Chorus:)
And I can't live without Your love
Cause Your eyes have seen beyond
The things I'm guilty of
I won't be afraid
To turn back down the road
Cause Your heart will always be my home


(Verse 2:)
And when I've cried a thousand tears
You've always wiped them dry
And watch me as I spread my wings and fly
To a place
Where holiness begins
And mercy never ends
And I will find my freedom once again


(Bridge:)
Your hands are always open
To catch me when I fall
I feel a million miles away
But thats no distance at all