Happiness

I'm really happy =)

cos i had a fun dinner with sis in SP, having the delicious black pepper beef sar hor fan , joking about the very young-looking poly boy (looked like 14 yrs old), and the superb tom-yam flavoured sambal. and just talking about stuffs..

at night had an ITC committee meeting at Long John Silver, i get to eat their crispy crumps & fries, drank this big cup of coke. had meeting, talk about stuffs & ITC thingies..
This ITC committee that comprises of 5 ppl, always joke around n talk like mad then talk about serious issues. can't get any better than this.. friends, part family, then only committee.

i'm glad cos see keong (caleb) fetched me to the bike parking spot beside kotaraya so that i don't have to walk that 10-15 mins.. i didn't know that by car can reach so fast, only need 1 min.. heh heh.

go home same old 11.45pm but then mom got left dinner for me.. woa ha, the fried egg is sooo nice. outside crispy and a bit salty, inside soft and a bit creamy.


now tired (but not as tired as usual, woo hoo!) n wanna sleep.. hair not yet dry, dishes waiting to be washed.. felt so carefree now.. another 7-8 hours of sleep b4 the next session of studying.




I am thankful because all this time i don't fall sick while having this crazy traveling routine (after seeing see hwee fell sick). And something really struck me when i was in see keong's car..


When we got into the car, see hwee just rests her head on see keong's (boyfriend) shoulder, no words said, just a little sigh..


And God whispered, "see.. exactly..."



Yeah, exactly.. the way I should come to God.. especially when i'm tired and felt like destroying the whole world. Or when i feel worthless & not being in the situation that i deserve.

Lean against Him, in His presence, and just sigh...


The sigh of relief, comfort, outpouring of angst..
Knowing that I can choose: to burst out cursing about how life is such a bitch, surrender to routines and tiredness, dream about having now things that couldn't possibly happen, or rest in God, who knows best, who is (in my opinion) "qian da" enough to hold back certain luxuries so that i could develop better character, loves me right beyond my imagination & comprehension; reminds me that i am first nothing, but with Him i can go a step further, a step wider, a step deeper..

be rest assured, lean on His shoulder.. sigh...
it's tough, but you are here, always here.. and i guess that's enough.. =)


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anyway, because of see keong's route, i get to see a different walking path back to my bike parking area.. i wonder if i dare to walk that path, look at the transvestite in the eyes, say no to his/her services, and say "God loves you" with a big smile..

if something bad happens and i die, is it worth it? if nothing happens, is it worth it? if i don't do it, will i regret it?

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